Jackie: Future Fitness Fantasies
It’s the half way mark! Things have been going ok – not perfect by any means as I’ve had some challenges to deal with this past week. I’ve discovered that comfort food is exactly that. I’ve also discovered it’s not usually comprised of the good for you stuff. With the loss of much loved pet of fourteen years, I found myself slipping up a little. Yes, I reached for the chocolate. It wasn’t much (I’d taken most of that kind of stuff out of the house) but I went straight to it. And when faced with some frustration this week – I also reached for the kid’s cheezies.
Oddly, I heard this voice in my head saying “I’ll show them!” as I ate a cup of those addictive orange squiggles. When I reached for more another voice said “Show who? I don’t see anyone else here? And by the way, you know you just put those on your thighs.” The second voice won out. It might have been due to the fact that I was a little freaked by hearing voices in the first place, but hey, I’ll take the behaviour change none the less.
I have noticed that working out is getting a little bit easier, too. I have a little more stamina than I did before. I even made it through the 20/10 Total Body Revolution workout (designed to set the wimps from the truly committed , perhaps?) without collapsing. It was due, in part, to the fact my two year old was lying on the floor doing pushups beside me and generally copying everything I did. There was no way I was going to be shown up by a toddler! Notwithstanding the fact that my legs were in agony for two days after, I was so proud of myself for pushing through that workout. And I felt incredible when I was done. Yet another new thing – I liked the feeling exercising gave me. Who’d have thought?
Lately I’ve found myself indulging in a few fantasies – one of which includes working out regularly. I’ve even figured out that after this challenge, I could join the gym at work and do yoga once a week, the treadmill another day (or another class or…) use my TBR videos on at least two of my three days off and even take the kids out for nature hikes and other fun stuff. This is definitely something I don’t’ usually dream about. My other dreams include the beach, playing in the waterpark with my family, going for lots of walks, and other active stuff. I’m beginning to think there is some brainwashing going on here!
And as for food – I’m satisfied with less and unlike my usual sit-at-my-desk-and-eat-all-day-long self, I’m finding myself wanting to eat at regular times and being satisfied until the next snack or meal. Yes, I’ve snuck in the occasional bite of Kraft Dinner, but I’m acknowledging the poor choices and figuring out how to change them for next time. It’s a learning curve, and there’s definitely something positive going on in this brain of mine. (notwithstanding those odd voices – I’m still trying to figure out who they are…)
- Jackie Mandzac